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Wednesday, April 13, 2016

WORKING MOMMY

Rasa bersalah tiap kali tinggalkan anak untuk pergi kerja, rasa sayu hati sangat-sangat, rasa rindu anak sangat-sangat. Kalau boleh nak 24jam dengan dia perhatikan dia tiap masa. 


TAPI,
I love my job.


So for good future,
Terpaksa tolak tepi2 rasa guilty tu,


Hari2 sebelum gerak ke rumah pengasuh,
Dalam kereta,
Saya akan tenung B,
Saya panggil dia "kaseh-kasehhh" sampai dia senyum, lepastu saya kata pada B "mummy gi kerje tau, mummy cari rezeki, B doakan mummy murah rezeki ye".. lepastu mesti B akan sengih2 macam konon faham je :)


"Its really hard because you want to be there for ur child but you still have to be at work.‎"


Lady faizal,
FatinFashiekin

Tuesday, April 12, 2016

JAWATAN KOSONG


Banyak graduan menganggurkan? 
Ijazah dalam perladangan--


But,
Kami mencari mereka yang sanggup berpecah tapak tangan kerana mencangkul / sanggup berhitam kulit kerana berpanas / sanggup bermandi peluh even diwaktu malam / sanggup mganggkat berpuluh kilo baja / sanggup terkena sengatan lipan tanpa sengaja.


Susah nak cari kan? 


Kalau job sekadar melawat kawasan,
Pakai topi mengkuang tepi kebun,
Dengan sunglasss hitam,
Pegang kertas sambil kipas2 diri konon mekap cair, job tu memang dah ade orang isi,
Iaitu AKU la hahaha.



Lady faizal,
FatinFashiekin




Wednesday, April 6, 2016

HARI PERTAMA HANTAR ANAK KE PENGASUH

Hari yang dinanti muncul tiba,
Harini hari pertama kerja,
Shift harini masuk tengahari.


Pagi tadi pukul8,
Masa incik lalan ssiap nak gi kerja saya dah duk tenung anak je.
Pastu incik lalan dtg dekat dan cium kaseh sambil cakap supaya behave kt rumah pengasuh, air mata saya dah bergenang je.


Pastu saya pangku B,
Cium pp dia dan pandang suami pastu kata :
"Kalau saya rindu B cemaneeee"
-pastu teresak esak nngis,
Sambil cium2 anak yg slumber tidur


Incik lalan :
Ha tenungla dia puas2 skg

Saya :
*tahan air mata berlinang*
Tapiiiiiiiiii (air mata jatuh) saya xpnh jauh dari B, slalu cium B, nanti saya rinduuuuuuu (lg kuat nangis)

Incik lalan:
**dia ambil bantal dan baling ke muka saya**


Huhu.


Allhamdulillah tdi hantr bby dia x nangis, mmg la x ngis, baru 2bulan++ dgn smua org dia ikut.


Tk sabar nk blik kerje,
Nk gomol anakkkk


Lady faizal,
Fatinfashiekin

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Monday, April 4, 2016

MELANTAK STEAK HUB

Saya pcinta kambing tegar !!
Bila incik lalan google steak terbaik melaka, keluar lah "melantak steak hub" ni


Woo, mmg terbaik steak dia !
Incik lalan bedal sampai 3pinggan tau, sampai brader tu tnye "nk bungkuske ?" Masa incik lalan bt pilihan daging baru hehe.


So ssapa pcinta steak macam kami ni, anda mmg patut pergi melantak steak hub ni ! Steak dia lembut / tebal dan sos blackpper dia pn sedap wey.


Persekitaran jgn cter la kn, mmg selesa. Staff dieorang pn semua lemah lembut dan murah senyuman tk kira laki ke pmpn.


Memang terbaik !!!

Next,
Me'nate steak house !
Aummm


Lady faizal,
Fatinfashiekin

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Sunday, April 3, 2016

BYE DADDY

Khamis ni mula kerja?
Selasa pula baby nak kena cucuk vaksin dan saya kena ambil pil perancang kali ke2. (Awal gila KK suruh start mkn pil prncg haha)


So kena laa balik pagoh sbb appointmnt bby cucuk kat pagoh.
Alang2 khamis da kerja, saya plan nk rehat2 terus kat pagoh bagi baby main2 dengan tok dan nek. Pastu ni bawa baby kerumah pengasuh


So iols pun kata lah pada incik lalan ;

Saya :
Esok kiteorang dah balik pagoh, habislah daddy nnti rindu kat kiteorang.


Incik lalan :
Eh selasa balik sini kan ? Cucuk vaksin B kat sini je lah.


Saya :
Rasa macam kelam kabut nak ulang alik nanti. Eleh, takut rindu baby laaa tuuui. Nanti sebelum tidur mesti xdpt tidur sbb dah biase tidur peluk anak. Pastu malam2 mesti tsedar sbb dah terbiase baby minta susu. Bangun pagi pula tgk kiri kanan kiteorang tak de. Pergi meja dapur tgk atas meja punn kosong je nnti. Mesti awak akan rindu kamiiiii


Incik lalan :
Awak okey ke kalau jadi surirumah ?


Saya :
(Haha. Dia ulang lagiiii) boleh klu bulan2 dpt 2k. Kite bt pjnjian,


Incik lalan :
**dia tarik rambut aku tnda geram**


Actually incik lalan tu dia jenis tak tahan rindu sikit bb anak. Klu bb bini dia steady lg. Bb ank dia lemah sikit. Ni lg2 cuti pantang kn lame. Da tbiase lh tu saya dn ank ade kt rumah. Seronok btl mgusik dia ! Haha


Semoga daddy tk deman rindu kami yee. Sekejap je kiteorg balik pagoh. Nnti kite jumpe lagiiiii ;D


Untill now saya still repeat2 statement "habislaaa daddy nnti rindu kat babyyyy, tdengar2 lagu twinkle2 little star nnti, jangan nangissss"


Lady faizal,
Fatinfashiekin

Saturday, April 2, 2016

SUAMI









antara menu untuk suami masa cuti pantang ni,
suami kata "gemuklaaa saya macamniiiii haih,
appepun, ni baru lah hantaran 15K"
hahahha 



seronok juga jadi housewive bila dah ada anak ni,
masa terluang tgk anak,
kalau krja smua sendiri, so bila kat rumah x kerja,
skecil benda pun bgantung harap pd suami.
tlupa tgk kelendar,
hanya tgk kalendar bila awal bulan dan ajak hubby shopping2,


hubby pula selalu serba salah tgk saya mmeruk kat rumah,
kalau before this 12tghmlm bru balik,
since saya ada kt rumah ni,
pukul 9mlm da balik rumah,
even dah ada anak, still mengamalkn lepak2,





malam2 lepak chaqcorner


suami ada juga kata "nk jd surirumah boleh,
tp kne jd usahawan kerepek, saya supply bahan,
awak mohon pd wanita umno bntuan alatan,
bab marketing seterusnya jgn rsau, tok ketua kabel dia kuat"


saya :
TAK MOOOOOOOOOOO
TAK MOOOOOOOOO
TAK MO
HAHAHHA



bab masakan diatas,nnti saya share resepi ye,
iols idok ler pandai masak bebeno,tk caya tny mama saya,
tapi disebabkan nak yg tbaik buat suami,
even tak tahu punnnn bsmangat nk bljar,
siapa tk sayang suami kn ?


yes, saya mmg sangat sayangkan suami saya,
entah. jnis saya klu sayang someone mmg sy appreciate hbis2
dn xkn ada org lain blh bt mcm saya buat.


yes, saya takut kehilangan my hubs,
so skg dia milik saya,
saya bt sebaik mungkin spya tk sesal


ok nk share link instgram seorg pmpn ni,
kahwin bulan 5,
tapi bulan 11 hubs dia meninggal,
sedih. menangis2 saya baca kerinduan dia pd suami,
dia ada share, masa hayat suami dia,
dia cukup marah kalau dia tgh tidur suami dia peluk/sentuh
dia dengan tangan yang sejuk,
sekarang, suami dia dh tk ada dn dia nk tgn sejuk tu semula.


instagram : nabilhussaiin

perempuannya sangat cantik,

suami nya kacak,
 mereka kaya,
sangat kaya.
dan sekarang bagi isterinya,
semua dah tak ada mkna,
dia cuma nk jumpa suaminya lagi disyurga nnti






 

nabilhussaiin I hate those mornings where I wake up and I have forgotten everything, I can feel his scent in our room so I move my hand over to his pillow and call out to him & then it hits me and my whole world breaks again and I just pray to Allah that each and everyday in his new home is ok for him. I miss looking over and seeing him sleeping peacefully, I miss seeing him wake up and tell me that he loves me take me into his arms and chill, discuss our day, laugh, share the best moments our intimate moments. The day he left was no different he sat up in our bed, we talked he told me he was going to have a good day, try eat healthy little did we know Allah was about to remove his body from my life, little did I know that would be my last conversation with him, my last cuddle. I mean does anyone ever think of that when there having a conversation with someone and there about to leave, do you ever think that this may be my last conversation I may never see this person again? I think it all the time I never forget to give my family a cuddle and tell them that I love them because I'm just so scared of leaving them without them knowing how I feel and Allah removing them from my life or me from theirs




 nabilhussaiin The realist, My realist. Nobody got me like he got me nobody wants for me what he wants for me and nobody can love me the way he loved me. I have a million questions that go through my head daily and then again like every other day I surrender to what Allah has willed for me. So much was said between us but I still have so much to say so I go see him and talk to him and I feel great offloading but I don't get a response. I miss our conversations, your calls, your messages. I miss how at the end of the day you would talk to me about everything and ask me for advice. I miss our closeness, It's so funny how people tell me stories about you & them and I'm like yeah I know that & there like Nabil told you 🙄 Of Course Lol Everything he thought everything he was told I knew and vice versa, miss the way that no matter what was going on no matter how good or bad a day we would have we always had each other one powerful hug from Nabil and it all seemed fine. I have so many people around me but iv never felt more alone in my life, I have so many people to talk to but it's never the same as talking to Nabil. He truly listened he truly felt my words, he brought peace into my life no one can ever make me feel that way again because no one can be him. Sometimes I can only reminisce about him to a certain degree because no one knew the Nabil I knew no one felt that connection that him and I Had except Nabil and I guess that's a painful blessing. A cut so deep yet so sweet? Your smile was the light of my eyes, your words soothed my heart every time, your voice was music to my ears. I can't let go my soul is connected to his a little part of me dies everyday, his memories so precious to me yet so tormenting? There's no easy way out for me I have to live through this pain to gain the pleasure of being with you again. My sweet angel



kesimpulannya,
see, saya tgk kawan2 saya kehilangan suami mereka mengejut,
so jom sayang suami masing2,
jgn bila tk ada kita sesal.


ok, jp lg suami nk balik ni,
bye ;)


aha, klu rasa nk marah suami,
buka insta si nabilhussaaiin tu,
serius tsedar






Friday, April 1, 2016

SELAMAT MALAM

Dia kata penat nk baring,
Tetibe baring kt peha.


Ok da 1 jm baring,
Kebas da ni huhu


Kesian nk kejut.
Esok pagi lh kejut,
Bye.


Goodnight


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